Sorry that I am not giving in to your demand to stop climbing. I hope you understand that my passion for this endeavour equates my pursuance of you. I’m sure you’ll remember the times you told me you don’t want me in your life; it is climbing that pushed me forward, it kept my sanity. It taught me that no matter how painful the trail is or how draining the sun is or how scary the cliffs are – the view is always worth it.
Climbing taught me perseverance. The kind that I used to win your love. Just like our courtship, the road is full of peaks and valleys but deep in my heart, I know you’re worth each and every pain. The view is definitely better at the top the way my life is infinitely better with you.
Sorry if you felt nervous every time I climb. Believe me, it is not my intention to make you feel that way. I invited you once and I was so happy you joined us, but I saw how my passion will never be yours.
I felt nervous you won’t make it. And worse, I felt nervous for putting you in that situation. I saw how you were chilling and grasping for breath. Then I saw you looking at me. You didn’t say a word but I knew what you were saying – no more of this next time. I knew at that moment that going home was much better than summiting the peak alone.
Sorry for leaving you on weekends. While your friends are on a date, watching movies and strolling in malls you’re in your room patiently waiting for my Instagram-worthy pictures. Sorry for that. Climbing made me realize that there is life after the mountains. And you are my life.
Your absence, or even better mine, sharpens our love in the same way that our presence strengthens it. Worry no more for my weekdays are all yours now.
Thank you for understanding that climbing makes me a better person. Thank you for making me realize that more than the summits and peaks, it is you I’m most eager to see. I used to get so excited climbing mountains but I am more excited now of going home and seeing you. The eagerness of going home exceeds the excitement of reaching the peaks. You are the reason why I watch my steps on the trail. You are the reason why I don’t make a jumpshot beside a cliff. But most of all, you gave me the ultimate reason to go home.
After all, now I know someone is waiting for me after every climb – the girl I love who never climbs.